I'm a bit stressed out at the moment, I've got such a busy week coming up and I know there are things I should be doing, but then I procrastinate, because technically I'm still on holiday right? Maybe I need the pressure of having to do things before doing them, rather than doing things in advance and creating breathing space for myself. It's hard to explain, I know I should, but I'm having difficulty prioritising tasks right now, because I'm waiting to see which is going to be the most urgent and demanding as they happen.
It's just a sort of lull I've got myself into over the holidays. As I said before, it's easy to get used to do nothing, and another week of the same wouldn't hurt. My memory card for my digital camera arrived today and by the time I'd formatted it and copied across the photos I'd taken, from temporary memory, the battery died on me. How sad is that? Flies live much longer!
One more day of freedom then it's back with the nose to the grindstone. I'll have to pull myself up by the bootstrings and throw myself back into it with great gusto, because it's expected of me. I'm still pretty much under scrutiny, no more observations to endure, but I have to get some momentum going, in order to impress. And yet, I can't allow myself to perform too well, because that might upset my mentor, whose approval I require in order to continue. Are you beginning to see what's involved here? Who'd become a teacher? It requires total dedication and an natural ability to please everyone!
